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[fourteen]

[ Waking up in a forest in a white sundress when it's cold and snowing is no fun at all, especially when she is dead certain she's not supposed to be here at all. She's clutching the journal she found to her chest as she makes her slow way through the trees, shivering violently. Every so often she stops and sets the journal down so she can cast a Fire spell to try and warm her hands a bit. She's desperate to find some shelter, anywhere she can get out of this cold and just have a moment to think through what the heck is happening here.

But she has no idea where she's going, and finally she stops, letting a few particularly hard shivers pass before she looks down at the journal in her arms. Her musings are a little muddled by her teeth chattering, yes. ]

I don't understand... I'm n-n-not supposed to be here, and I don't even know what happened to my clothes, or what this little book is for.

[ And she glances over her shoulder, frowning softly. ]

And I've g-g-got these wings ... last time I checked, I definitely didn't have wings.

[ Heaving a sigh, she hugs the journal close to her chest again, and rubs a hand up and down one arm, staring at the sky. ]

W-W-What's going on...?

(ooc; I tried, but alas. spoilers abound in comments!)

Comments

[oh sure, "friends"-- action]

[fourteen]

... I can't tell you both at the same time. I just can't.

Roxas, before we get there, there's something I have to tell you.

[no really, we'd be good "friends"..>>;-- action]

[perplexme]

[That'll make him stop walking then and face her.] What is it?

[this just changed to "my muse is crying inside" flavor-- action]

[fourteen]

... Roxas, I'm not a Nobody. I'm...

[ she hugs her journal so, so tight to her chest, staring down at the ground, her voice getting progressively quieter as she speaks. ]

I'm a replica ... of Sora's memories of Kairi. My ... my original purpose was just to duplicate your powers.

[Xion is such a sad character and I just want to hug her-- action]

[perplexme]

[He stays very quiet as soon as she says that, just staring at her and trying to wrap his mind around it.] You...what?

[if anyone ever needed a hug in all of kh, it's her, for reals-- action]

[fourteen]

[ she only nods quickly, squeezing her eyes shut and keeping her head bowed. ]

I really didn't want you to know. I'm sorry.

[ikr? poor little girl-that-doesn't-actually-exist-- action]

[perplexme]

...I don't understand though. Why would that...[He'll just trail off. He gets the idea that Xion doesn't want to talk about it, but he's very confused.]

[she'll be a real girl someday-- maybe-- never-- action]

[fourteen]

[ oh, it's not that. she's just terrified he'll hate her. ]

... why would that what?

[well that really just sucks-- action]

[perplexme]

[Right now he's more confused than anything else.]

...that doesn't make any sense.

[confused and sadface action]

[fourteen]

[ well that's not the answer she was expecting. ]

... why not?

[forever doomed to be tragic action]

[perplexme]

Duplicating my powers and being made from memories of Kairi? Why?

[darkneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeess action]

[fourteen]

... I don't know why. I just know it's true. You'd have to ask someone like Xemnas or Xigbar for that.

[emptinesssssssssss action]

[perplexme]

...Xemnas is gone, at least. It's...weird.

[where is my heeeeeeeeeeeeart action]

[fourteen]

... weird?

[You don't need oneeee action]

[perplexme]

It sounds strange.

[why not I totally want oneeeeeeeee action]

[fourteen]

... what do you mean?

[because I said sooooooo action]

[perplexme]

How do you know that's true?

[can I have a pony insteaaaaaaaaaad action]

[fourteen]

... I have memories that aren't mine, Roxas. Memories of her that shouldn't belong to me.

And Riku... he told me. Namine, too. Even Axel -- he knows what I am, too. Or, well ... he used to know, I guess.

[assss youuuu wiiiiish action]

[perplexme]

...but nobody told me.

[oh my sweet Westley! action]

[fourteen]

... I couldn't. I'm sorry, Roxas. And Axel ... I asked him to take care of you.

[I need to watch that movie again sometime soon action]

[perplexme]

...which is why he never told me anything.

[I just watched it recently and it warms my black little heart action]

[fourteen]

[ she shakes her head slowly. ]

You'd have to ask him that yourself.

[I actually haven't seen it for years and that makes me sad action]

[perplexme]

...did you think I would be mad?

[omggggg rent it ;o; action]

[fourteen]

... I had a decision to make, Roxas. I didn't want to leave you, or Axel ... but Riku told me I couldn't just make a decision that was right for me, but right for everyone. And ... because of what I am, I was draining your power. You were getting weaker...

[ it's obvious on her face that she hates talking about this. but the words keep coming, almost against her will ]

I knew I had to leave, but ... you would have tried to stop me. So I couldn't tell you... I'm -- I'm really sorry, Roxas. I had to do what I knew was right.

[I should DX action]

[perplexme]

Riku's stupid. ...I don't understand though...what do you mean you were draining my power?

[I am not awaaaaaaaaaaake action]

[fourteen]

What? No he's not! [ actually vaguely insulted.

buuuuut. he had to ask, didn't he. drat. she goes quiet for a moment, trying to figure out how to explain. ]

Remember what I said about being built to duplicate your powers? Well ... I ended up sort of borrowing from you. I even started fighting like you... and you kept saying the Keyblade was wearing you out when you used it.

[ sadfaces. just .... sad. ]