fourteen | oo13 [ voice // action ]

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[ Without any warning, a short, sharp shriek of fear is going to be transmitted across the journals. It's followed by dead silence, and a few whispered words too quiet to be picked up on.

A moment goes by in silence, wherein Xion notices both the room's other [Bad username or site: perplex_me title= @ livejournal.com] and her journal at the foot of her bed. Her voice is shaky when the journal picks it up next, and she's both addressing anyone who heard as well as Roxas. ]

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to -- it's -- I'm okay.

What's...

[ She could have sworn she saw him, just as she awoke. Right out of the corner of her eye, like some monster from her nightmares. It would be impossible to mistake that blue hair, those impossibly cold eyes... but there was no one there. Not to mention her dreams of the past few days haven't exactly been nightmares, so much as... ]

--Sora! Sora! Where is he?! [ very upset Poppet is very upset and isn't sure if she's really yelling this at Roxas, or at the whole universe. ] SORA!

(ooc; her voice replies will come a little bit after this entry is actually made; her thread with Roxas will chronologically come first. tags might be a little slow because there is a cat sleeping on my arms.)

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[said honestly]

I'd like to see you in person.

[ silent for a moment, if only so she can fight off the tears that suddenly threaten to come. she wants to see him so badly. forgive her if her voice is a little quavery. ]

I'd like that too. Should I meet you...?

[there's only a smile on his face]

If you don't mind the forest again, how about there? By the northern river near the edge of town.

Um... okay. I'll see you in a few minutes. [ and she shuts her journal so she can head out. ]

[He'd picked the spot because it's close to where he lives, and right now he wants to reach the forest first. To think, to consider, to understand where he's going with his thoughts.

He's not sure he likes where they're going.

None of that's going to show on his face. When he hears approaching footsteps, Sanji turns to greet her]

Xion-chan?

Edited 2010-06-03 08:21 (UTC)

[ she ends up being a little late, too, because after several days unconscious, she wanted to change and get cleaned up. the one thing she managed to grab and put on quickly before she left was this; so at least she looks nice, if still a bit wearier than usual. but she smiles for him. ]

Hi, Sanji.

[.... he knows it's not appropriate right now, but fuck it.]

Xion-chwan looks adorable~!!

[ sldghlsdkjas what. oh god a dress going out in a dress WHAT WAS SHE THINKING?? well, she wasn't, really. so once he reminds her she's IN a dress, instantly she's a little flustered. but still, his praise pleases her quite a bit and she smiles shyly at him, even giving a tiny laugh. but her voice is quiet, a bit subdued, when she speaks. ]

Thanks. I've been trying to wear more girl clothes.

Oh? [Well he certainly doesn't object to the idea - it's a nice distraction either way, when he considers what they'll soon be discussing.]

Got a reason? Or just because? [If she's willing, he'll turn and nod in a seemingly random direction for them to walk]

Edited 2010-06-03 09:04 (UTC)

Well... when I first got here it was still cold out, and I wanted to go get my Organization uniform, which is pretty warm. But Roxas thought I should get a dress, or some other girl clothes. I didn't really understand at the time, but ... I guess I wanted to try it ever since, so a little while ago I got some dresses from the clothing store.

[ all said with a small smile still on her lips. though she self-consciously smooths the dress out, a little. ]

As long as you're comfortable in it. It's a good color on you, too.

[ she murmurs another quiet thank you, but looks away. it's nice of him to complement her, but everything she woke up a while ago to realize is still sitting heavily on her mind. ]

[a sigh. That means it's time to get this over with]

How're you holding up?

[ wilts a little. ]

...... I guess it's still hitting me. I thought I was okay with things before, but now ... now it's worse, somehow.

... The waiting?

[ nods emphatically, but once she's done she keeps her head bowed, not looking up at him ]

It must sound awful, but I wish it was just over with, so I could stop waiting and always feeling like ... this. So that Sora wasn't in danger anymore and Riku and Roxas and Axel didn't have to go through this. And Kairi, too.

[He almost stops walking, a hesitancy in his step.]

And you're... sure there's no other way. [he's asking honestly here; Xion doesn't strike him as the type to give up hope if there's any available option to take]

[ she glances up at him in silence for a moment, then looks straight ahead ]

I don't want to die. If I really thought there was another way out of this, I would take it. But ... I really don't think there is.

... [That's what he thought. He takes a deep sigh, pulls out a cigarette]

Alright.

How long do you have?

[ it's an ugly, bald question to ask.

and it strangely doesn't bother her as much as she would have thought ]

I don't know. If I got this many of Sora's memories this quickly... maybe a few months. Maybe till the end of summer... it could be sooner. I'm really not sure.

[Not long at all. No time.

He's sorry, Xion, but he's got a few more questions. For once, he does need to know]

And what happens at the end?

... [ this is the part she most hates to think about. she's silent for a moment, and now she's very obviously trying to avoid looking at him. ]

If it happens the same way... I'll turn into a monster. A big one. And I'll start attacking people... I-I'll try and get away from the village first, though. If I can.

[And now he does stop walking. And his voice is flat, but firm]

You're saying someone has to kill you.

[ she moves a few steps past him before coming to a stop. then she nods, just once. ]

Yes.

...

I see. [he starts walking again, slowly. And he doesn't say anything this time. Sanji can't bring himself to point out that killing her would be easiest now, while she's still her, and hates himself for even thinking the thought.

And he won't what she's going to do either, since that demands she make some type of choice.]

Well. [a sigh]

Whatever happens... or what you decide to do, your friends will help you see it through to the end. [Whatever that will end up entailing - doesn't make it less of the truth]

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