fourteen | oo19 [ voice // action ]

Entry tags:

oo19 [ voice // action ]

( Filtered From the Entire KH Crew | Locked 100% )

... is it strange to sometimes wish you could go home? Even if there's nothing there for you? [ nothing except death, in her case. this isn't hilariously morbid or anything, no. ]

I'm just not sure when or how things got so ... complicated. Is this just what life is like...?

[ Xion is outside today, somewhere a little more quiet. She's sitting on the railing of the bridge that passes over the river between houses 14 and 35, swinging her legs gently as she holds onto the rail with one hand and the journal with her other. It ... doesn't seem terribly safe, but then again, she's used to much higher places. Feel free to startle her from her contemplation. She could use it. ]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

[ ... after a moment's pause, Xion tells him everything. she speaks quietly, never getting upset or angry, even when she describes how Roxas forgot her or how Naoki tried to kill her... Luffy threatening her, and Riku talking about the Keyblade, even forgetting why she died. All the way up through the argument that lead to her breaking up with Riku and his disappearance, only for him to come back again a few days later.

be proud that you're one of the very few people she'd tell the whole truth to, Draco. ]

And all of this after the village fell apart, and was attacked by monsters... and even before that, I died, and something really bad happened with Sanji, one of my closest friends. It just feels like ... ever since Sora fell asleep and I knew I was going to die, everything's just gotten worse and worse. I want to believe it'll get better, but ... it's gotten really hard to do that.

[And to his credit, he actually sits still long enough and he listens and absorbs what she's saying. Be proud of that, Xion. That's a huge pile to come crashing down, really.]

That was...almost two months ago, right? Think about it this way. [Give him a moment as he explains about the first part of July he spent traipsing through Harry's mind, the things he had to fight including finding his own dead body and facing off with his father not once but twice. It's a long story when you fit in all the fun little details.]

Spent almost a month inside after that because none of us were ready to face the real world again. August was starting out slightly better, but then the village fell apart and the monsters...and...remember when the powercap came off? My housemates and I, we got involved in this fight with this demon? Only two of us came out of it alive. [And that still sucks to admit that they lost Arumat.] He's still not back yet either. And then when the whole village was basically flipped and no two people had the same stories? My best friend, his business partner was possessed by a demon. Got to fight him too.

My point here is this. You're way more optimistic than I am, and if I'm still standing at this point, things will probably get better for you first. It's one of the few things that seems to make sense at the moment. Granted, I realize it's not entirely the same, but similar, yeah? [He's trying at least. Being around the Gryffindors has taught him to be at least slightly more sympathetic even if he hates it most of the time because ew, sentimental feelings. At least with Xion he doesn't mind that much.]

Edited 2010-08-31 16:15 (UTC)

[ sldkjghasdiuhfvlkja holy shit, Draco. her eyes go very wide as he talks and she absorbs just how much has happened to him. perhaps to her credit, she doesn't burst out with an "I'm so sorry!" but rather just listens quietly and patiently until he's done.

and once he stops speaking, she's quiet for a moment, biting her lip as she thinks. ]

... Luceti hasn't been very kind to either of us these past few months, huh? [ she sighs through her nose and shakes her head, glancing away momentarily. ] ... but ... [ after a beat, she looks back at him and tries for a smile ] Maybe from here things will get better for both of us. I think by now we both deserve a break, don't you? So ... I hope you're right.

[He shrugs a bit at that though because lol no. Sorry Xion, but things don't exactly get better for him, just a bit more tolerable. But he doesn't say as much.]

I have many things I could say about Luceti, but none of them are proper for a lady's ears. [Still, he hooks his thumbs in his pockets and looks at his feet.] I usually am right, just keep that in mind. They will get better for you. Fairly soon, I'm sure.

[ draco y u gotta be like that. she just looks at him, trying not to smile at the thought of what things he might have to say about Luceti. Xion swings her legs back over the railing and hops down onto the bridge, smiling warmly at him. ]

... if you say it, then I think I can believe it. But... what about you? [ she's going to insist, Draco. she wants her snarkbutt friend to be okay too you know. ]

[Cause he be trollin, he hatin'? But no really it's because Draco's realistic, or so he thinks. But he sees that look anyway, and he grins a little more at her. Xion stop being ~~adorable~~ pleasant.]

You should. [He just lifts an eyebrow though.] What about me? I already told you, didn't I?

I just want to make sure things get better for you too, Draco. [ concerned smile. ] You sound like you could use it even more than I do.

My line of thinking is that I probably shouldn't get too comfortable here because of the things I have waiting for me back home. I appreciate the concern and all, but really, don't you ever just focus on yourself?

[ uhm. ] ... you're not the first person to ask me that, actually. [ sheepish laugh. ] I'm allowed to worry about my friends, aren't I?

Shouldn't that be a hint then? [But he's not being rude, just kind of curious.] You're allowed, but isn't it important to worry about yourself as well?

[ she laughs again, but ... when she smiles now, there's a hint of something sad to it. ]

... I'm just not used to doing that. But I guess I should start getting used to it, huh?

[He tilts his head in a curious sort of fashion. Don't mind him, Draco's not sure he gets it.]

Why haven't you been anyway?

[ chews the inside of her lip, looking away. ]

... it has a lot to do with what life was like for me back home. I got used to thinking I wasn't really ... worth anything.

[ hell, the concept is still strange to her now. ]

And yet you've been here for how long now?

... ten months.

...then I suppose I'm not the only one who finds changing to be difficult. You, however, should take your change of thinking a bit more seriously.

I take it seriously! ... of course I do. It's just... [ her brows knit tightly. it's hard to talk about this. she doesn't want to fish for sympathy. ] ... it's still hard to keep from thinking like I'm still the silly little puppet. The mistake that the Organization tried so hard to get rid of. [ shifts, visibly uncomfortable. ] ... I really do try not to think that way anymore. But when I'm upset, it sort of ... comes back.

[He's just going to stare at her for a long time. You know, one of those stares that will probably make her uncomfortable and fidget a bit, but he's clearly thinking this over.] If you want to get technical, all of us are the Malnosso's puppets here. Even if that's the case, your opinions and thoughts and feelings still matter to a good portion of the people here, do they not?

[ she's been subjected to this sort of thing before, actually. so while she's nervous, she doesn't fidget. she just watches him uncertainly. when he finally does speak up, and make that point about all of them being puppets, she can't help but wince a bit. but she bites her lip and forces herself past that, nodding at what he says. ]

... I've made a lot of friends. I know that I matter... or why would people have been so happy to see me come back after I died? [ very sad smile ] ... but when you spend a long time thinking one way, it's hard to change it to a completely different way, even when you know you should.

[Even though it's been a week or so since the last experiment, the effects may or may not have totally worn off. Nah okay, they have worn off, but Draco doesn't want to admit that he's had some Gryffindor tendencies stick such as being determined and trying to boost Xion's morale. He doesn't do this, what the hell? Xion shouldn't be different but she is, and it's that logic that makes him chew his lower lip for a moment before he starts speaking again.]

I think I know that much better than you'd think. A lot of people seem to have this impression about me that they probably shouldn't. You do, for one thing. And yet you're going to insist that I'm not the way I think I am and it'll be horribly hypocritical, don't you think?

[ ... probably shouldn't? but why shouldn't she believe he's a perfectly nice boy? since, well, he IS. totally. Xion just looks at him, for a moment, visibly a bit surprised. she says the next part slowly, as she figures out how to word it ] ... well ... I guess it's easier to believe good things of other people than it is to believe them of yourself, sometimes.

I suppose so...granted I've never really had an easy time believing good things of other people before I came here in the first place, so maybe that theory only works in some cases.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

oo19 [ voice // action ]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]

[Action]