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... is it strange to sometimes wish you could go home? Even if there's nothing there for you? [ nothing except death, in her case. this isn't hilariously morbid or anything, no. ]

I'm just not sure when or how things got so ... complicated. Is this just what life is like...?

[ Xion is outside today, somewhere a little more quiet. She's sitting on the railing of the bridge that passes over the river between houses 14 and 35, swinging her legs gently as she holds onto the rail with one hand and the journal with her other. It ... doesn't seem terribly safe, but then again, she's used to much higher places. Feel free to startle her from her contemplation. She could use it. ]

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[Sigh. He'll... tentatively take a few steps closer, remaining on the opposite side of the bridge.]

Sometimes it's hard to tell. I felt the same way for the longest time.

[ maybe if she just jumps into the river...

but no. running away has never solved her problems, and she's resolved to try and stop doing that. right now, though, it's hard.

after a moment's quiet, she shifts herself carefully so she can swing her legs back over the railing, so her back is to the water -- and she can better face Riku.

he is shorter. he looks less like the Riku she remembers from home -- even his voice is different -- but from what he said earlier... he sounds more like the Riku she met on the bridge before Beast's Castle that fateful day. ]

... you know what I've been thinking? [ she bites her lip. ] ... that I want to go home.

[ that should mean something to him. like it would mean something to anyone who knows what home means for her. ]

Home...

[Of course it means something to him. How could it not?

Feelings aside, Riku knows what would happen if she left. Would she really want to leave... only to die?

Needless to say, he looks quite shocked-- sad, even, to think she feels this way.]

You really want to go back? Even when there's only...

[He stops. They both know what it means, and there's no need to worsen the mood by being too direct.]

Edited 2010-08-30 02:07 (UTC)

[ her expression folds, and she drops her journal to the bridge so she can lace her fingers together in her lap. she can't look at him now. ]

I'd be with Sora. And Roxas. And I...

I'm tired. I'm tired of things going wrong and bad things happening. Ever since Sora fell asleep things have just been getting worse and worse without any breaks at all and I don't know how much more of it I can take.

Xion...

[It's true. Recently, things have been rough, and she has every reason to be tired of it all.

Heaving a sigh, Riku moves so that he's leaning against the edge of the bridge, right next to her.]

Listen, Xion. I know things have been rough. Between what happened with the Keyblade, the earthquake, and everything else that's happened recently, you have every reason to feel this way. Sometimes life gets complicated, and you never even see it coming.

I should know. Not like things have been easy for me either. But this isn't about me. It's about you.

[And... up he goes, onto the railing.]

But it hasn't been all bad, has it? I've known you for a while, and even with everything that's been piling up, I've seen you smile every now and then. I might not be Sora, but just because things start out tough doesn't mean they have to stay that way.

The future's what you make it, and even in the deepest darkness, there's always some light- that's what Mickey told me.

Edited 2010-08-30 02:26 (UTC)

[ oh god he's getting closer why is he-- he's on the railing oh god why is he here she should go, she should just leave before this gets any worse--

but no. she says nothing in response to his tl;dr. she simply leans against him slightly, her eyes thoughtful and far away. ]

[That's fine. Even if she doesn't say anything, it was worth saying...

Even if longwinded speeches like that are Sora's strongpoint and not his. He probably just sounded strange, but she needs all the encouragement she can get right now.

But for now he'll stay put, quietly gazing into the distance.]

... I know you're right. I just need to believe it'll get better. But ... somehow, as things got worse, that just got harder and harder to do.

[ and then you shattered my trust in a way I'm still not sure you can fix-- ]

I just wish things could be easy, even for just one day.

Maybe they will. It's hard to say. A lot can change over a short period of time.

[He shrugs.]

Even just a few words can change everything.

... yeah, they can.

[ but she's not thinking about that in a positive way. she's thinking about how Riku did change everything between them, with just a few words. she takes a deep breath, then finally sits up straight, looking at him with a serious expression. ]

Riku... I'm always going to care about you. But right now, I think I just need ... to start over again. I don't know how to stop feeling this way yet, so ... maybe with a little time, if we start from the beginning... I can fix it.

[He nods. Really, that was what he was referring to, anyway.]

That's fine. Take all the time you need. I know I messed up, and it's not going to be an easy fix.

Still, when you say start over, what do you mean, exactly?

[ ... slowly; this hurts to say ]

Do you think for now, we could ... just be friends? While I figure things out?

[That does hurt a little, but it's better than the alternative of her still avoiding him. After a while, he nods.]

Yeah, that's fine. It's more than I expected, anyway.

[ goddamnit, this hurts, why is she even doing this--

before she can succumb to temptation and just lean against him again or do something exceptionally stupid like kiss him, Xion hops down from the railing and looks up at him, forcing a smile that's braver than she feels. ]

So we start again. It'll be okay. You'll see.

Yeah. I guess you're right.

[He'll...force a smile, too. Though, hm...]

By the way, about that sword you mentioned...

[ visibly taken aback. and a little cautious, her brows drawing together. she didn't think he'd remember she said that. ]

... what about it?

Well...

[FWOOM. Soul Eater!]

Is this what you meant?

[ sdkjghaj she physically jumps back in shock. ]

You have it! But when did you...

That's the same... from when you beat me. [ a hand goes over her mouth. ] You called my Keyblade a sham. You even said it was worthless. I got really angry and ran at you and you took me down without even trying...

[ perhaps bafflingly, she's smiling. beaming, actually. she's ... kind of proud of him. ]

You really have it! You're strong now.

Edited 2010-08-30 05:13 (UTC)

[Heh. It's... kind of weird seeing her happy after what she said, but he appreciates it either way. Dismissing the Soul Eater, he slides down, leaning against the edge of the bridge again.]

Yeah, I am. It just took a while to get there.

... when I first met you, you were always quiet. You never really said much, but when you did talk, you always told the truth ... even if it hurt. You helped me more than anyone else could back then.

But you were so sad, too. [ hesitates a little, smiling sadly and looking down at her feet. that was her fault. ] ... it's strange, seeing you with that sword, but ... being so different, somehow. When I met you, you wore our cloak and you always had a blindfold on. You'd never take it off, not for anything. You were taller and your hair was longer. [ she looks up at him again, thoughtfully. ] ... I guess a lot of time must pass between when you find that sword and when I meet you.

It's possible. The way I got this sword isn't something I'm proud of, anyway.

[He sighs, looking down towards the river.]

The one who gave it to me's the same witch who turned me against Sora; she's part of the reason I gave into the darkness.

... [ she moves to stand next to him, a hand coming up to rest on the railing. ]

You talk about the darkness like it's a bad thing.

Nah.

[He shakes his head.]

It's not the darkness that's bad, just what's lurking inside it. I gave in because my heart was weak, but that's my fault in the first place.

[ she merely looks at him, not refuting his statement about the weakness of his heart. ]

Is it strong now?

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