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This locking thing is weird...

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... but not that hard, once you get used to it. Besides, I need to make sure no one can read this but me. I have a lot of things I need to think through.

I still can't believe they all remember me. In some ways I'm glad, but ... it just shouldn't be this way. None of it should. And Axel and Roxas ... they still don't remember everything, and I don't want them to. I don't want Axel to remember we fought twice. I don't want him to remember what ... what I looked like.

I don't want Roxas to remember what I did. The choice I had to make. I don't know if he'll be mad, or upset, or what, but ... he shouldn't have to remember that. It's not fair to him. I made him do that to me...

Not to mention Sora. It's still so strange, talking to him. I don't think it will ever stop being strange. But he's awake and he seems okay, so ... I guess I won't question it. It helps that he's so nice.

But on top of everything else, I can't call the Keyblade anymore, or use light. I expected that to happen ... I mean, I knew I was giving up that power. But now I'm alive again, and all I can do is use magic. It's going to be hard, fighting like this. I think I need to find a replacement.

And I have to make absolutely sure that Xaldin and Vexen don't find out. And whoever else is here from the Organization, besides Xigbar. I just wish they'd stay away from me.

Xigbar ... I don't even know if I can really trust him.

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I told him. He knew who I looked and sounded like... there was no way around explaining it.

I don't know what to do. Is it okay to just leave things like this?

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If I wanted a sword, does anyone know where I could get one? That I could keep for myself, not just to train with.

(ooc; spoilers are a given at this point. this is probably my last warning about it since I can't seem to avoid them. |D;)

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[Voice]

[miamijustice.livejournal.com]

A boy named Lloyd runs a smithy which could be used to produce one.

[Voice]

[fourteen]

A smithy?

[ this is a new word but she's pinged by it regardless. have some page flipping noises ]

Oh! This was mentioned in the guide, wasn't it. I should have read it more carefully. [ sigh. ] Thank you, though!

[Voice]

[miamijustice.livejournal.com]

Not a problem.

[Voice]

[fourteen]

... do they just make them for free? I was told everything's free here, but I'd feel bad making someone go to all that trouble without being able to repay them.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Ed and Lloyd are in the weapons' shop.

But uh...why do you want one if you aren't going to train with it?

[fourteen]

Yeah, I just realized ... I'll have to find it later.

Oh, it's not that. I'll train, I just want to make sure I have a sword of my own to keep. I wouldn't want to keep borrowing from other people.

(ooc; YOU. I wanted to continue that thread in Cloud's last entry but it needed fixin'. did you get the PM I sent?)

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Oh. [Can this tiny girl even use like...a decent sword, what even-] Yeah, they've got a ton of different ones up there. You might be able to find yours, if you had one.

((ooc: NO because I'm a failure and kind of...carpet-clear Cloud's inbox. |D And for some reason turned off notifs for PMs, why did I do that.

Need me to delete my comment?))

[fourteen]

... I know for a fact they won't have mine. So it'll have to be something new. It's going to be weird learning how to use a totally different kind of blade, though.

(ooc; HAHA IT'S OKAY. 8Db but yes, if you could~ I have been having such epic italics fail lately it's amazing)

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[gravity-splode.livejournal.com]

Depends on him, poppet. He's a good kid, though. Weird, but good.

[Locked]

[fourteen]

He didn't even believe me when I said I wasn't Kairi, at first.

[ SIGH ] I know. I just ... don't think it's good for him to know. I know there's nothing I can do about it now, but I'm still worried. I don't think he even really understood what I was trying to explain ... at least, that's what he said.

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[gravity-splode.livejournal.com]

She's here, you know? He'll catch on.

Give him time. He's not exactly the brightest bulb in the shed.

[Locked]

[fourteen]

[ she laughs a tiny bit ] That's mean, Xigbar.

He understands that I'm not her, though. I mean, he saw me. What I don't know is how to make him understand the whole "replica" thing, or if I even should! Maybe it's best to just leave it this way.

[fightlikeacow.livejournal.com]

There's a weapon store that gives them away for free. I got a really nice once.

[He holds up a cutlass to the journal for Xion to see.]

[fourteen]

[ oooh! peers at it and grins. ]

That's great! That'd be perfect. I didn't know there was a weapons store ... it's not the same place as the smithy, is it?

[fightlikeacow.livejournal.com]

Actually, I think they're the same place. I'm pretty new, though, so maybe there's another smithy hidden around here.

[fourteen]

[ she giggles ]

It's okay, I'll take a look around. I'm new too, actually! When did you get here?

[bigbluehat.livejournal.com]

I have to ask... why do you need one?

[fourteen]

... I had a weapon, back home. I'd like to have one here, too, just in case I ever need to fight.

[bigbluehat.livejournal.com]

Hmm. I cannot fault that, but it does make it sound as if you have current threats here.

[flamesofkaraya.livejournal.com]

I think there was a weapons shop here. What would you need one for?

[fourteen]

Well, I had one before! Back home. So I think it'd be good to have one here, too, in case I need to fight.

[flamesofkaraya.livejournal.com]

That makes sense. Are you a warrior too, then?

[waypastcool.livejournal.com]

A weapon?

There oughta be some place in this village you can get one. But why do ya need one? Someone tryin' to hurt ya?

[fourteen]

I found out where I can get one! All I have to do is find the place.

[ pause. ]

No ... but I had a weapon back home. I'd like to have a replacement just in case, you know?

[waypastcool.livejournal.com]

Can't be too far from the other shops. I'd check around town. Wish I could be more helpful, but I don't usually use 'em.

But I hear ya, kid. With this many people here better to be safe than sorry.