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[ It's a very, very exhausted Xion who is now finally home safe and in bed after a long day. Being returned from a death penalty removal only to end up in a vicious fight with your once boyfriend can take a lot out of a girl.

She and Riku had healed her up as best they could, agreed to tell no one, and left it at that. It was the best they could do, to try and keep the peace. Peace they both desperately needed.

Though now she was home, and warm, Xion found she could not sleep. Her deeply aching arms did not help matters. They'd have to be looked at -- hopefully by someone who didn't know any of her friends...

With a sigh, she starts up a voice post. ]

Hey, guys. I'm back. [ weak smile. ] Sorry for taking off like that.

[ ... okay, this isn't working. she needs ... she doesn't know what she needs, but she doesn't want to be alone right now -- and it'd almost be too risky to go find someone else in the household. if she let slip the truth....

it has to be someone else. (and definitely not Sanji.) it doesn't take her long to decide who. ]

( Luke | Locked 100% )

... hey. How are you feeling? [ if you're still sick she is not gonna bother you 8|

after a beat, she'll add the following for the general population, because it will probably come up later in the night, knowing her luck. ]

( Filtered away from the KH cast | Locked 80% )

So... if you couldn't sleep, what would you do? To try and get to sleep, I mean. Though I guess I wouldn't mind knowing how you'd pass the time, too...

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Eh? [ she opens her eyes, blinking, looking up. then she smiles -- just relieved to be going back inside. ]

Good, now we can get warm. [ she'll head up those steps, but -- it's Luke's house, she won't open the door without him. though she will, momentarily, lightly press her fingers to her temple -- a little dizzy. ]

[He's right at her side the whole time, and when Xion shows signs of dizziness, Luke just glances down at her as he opens the door and keeps it open, staying still for a moment and holding her to his side firmly to let Xion get her bearings back.]

Xion... [He wants to ask what happened so badly, but first they need to get inside and get her warm and comfortable.]

[ don't tempt her, Luke. she could stay right there, pressed against him, for ... a while, and still be happy.

instead she just stays still, eyes shut, until the dizziness fades, then opens her eyes again with a sigh. ]

I'm okay.

[ really! really really. ... maybe. she'll head inside, anyway. lead the way, man, all she wants to do now is sit down somewhere. ]

[If Luke weren't so worried, he might stop and think that he likes her like this, too... But the fact remains that he is worried, so once she's recovered, Luke nods and leads her inside.

Thankfully, the couch isn't far at all, so he brings her there and sits down with her.]

I'm going to start a fire, okay?

[And with that, he's up and going to the fireplace to get started on doing just that. But there should be a blanket right near Xion, should she decide to warm up further.]

Okay.

[ Xion's going to do a couple of things, in order:

1) Take off her boots so she doesn't get snow all over their poor couch.
2) Curl up in the tiniest of balls on said couch with a grateful sigh.
3) ... decide, after a moment, that that blanket looks awesome
4) Curl up in the tiniest of balls in said blanket, and
5) Quietly watch Luke get that fire going.

She seems pretty content where she is, for the moment. ]

[Luke at least knows how to start a fire, so after a few more minutes, the fire's starting up quite nicely. It isn't very big yet, but it should be in a little while, so Luke scoots back until his back is against the couch, and he glances over at Xion.]

There... It should get pretty warm in here soon.

[He pulls his knees up and rests his arms across them, getting himself comfortable.]

So what did you want to talk about? [Maybe it's about what happened to her.]

[ Luke, why are you on the floor and not on the couch where she can lean on you. kinda sadface about that, BUT ... she sighs. ]

It's kind of a long story... [ she pulls the fateful letter out of her pocket, bringing it above the blanket and smoothing it out, though she won't hand it to Luke. instead she just searches for that one line, expression troubled. ]

... there's this boy ... from my world. He and I ... we ... we were together, once. [ it feels strange admitting this, to Luke of all people. ] But I ended it when he said something terrible that broke my trust. Ever since then, we ... seem to get into fights a lot. While I was gone, he left me this letter... I discovered it first thing when I got home, and ... I don't think I've ever been so angry. He said...

[ Luke would understand this, right? She folds the letter back up, then continues, somewhat bitterly: ] "Maybe if you'd lived a normal life, you'd understand what I mean."

[... Whoa whoa wait, they were together once? Well. Uh. That. Makes Luke look down at the floor and shift awkwardly. It's... strange to hear that, for some reason. Strange and nerve wracking.

But they broke up? ... It's still awkward, but not quite as much now. Nnngh, this is so weird. Luke's never felt silly things like this before... But he pushes all that to the back of his mind in favor of listening to her.

And that last line? "Maybe if you'd lived a normal life"? Luke snaps his head back at her with his fists clenched and his eyes wide. Oh yes, he definitely understands.]

What?!

[ his anger only serves to quell her own; instead, she just looks sad. ]

... that is as bad as it sounds, isn't it? He's known I'm a Replica for a long time, and he still says it... [ she presses the heel of a hand to her eye, laughing quietly and humorlessly. then she lowers her hand, quiet again. ]

... all I could think about was how angry I was. I ... I went and found him. I mean, I ... I attacked him. We got in a fight...

[ ... does she show him? somewhat hesitantly, she lifts her arm and only pulls down the edge of her sleeve -- just enough so that Luke can see the white bandages beneath. quickly she pulls her sleeve back up, hiding the damage. ]

... I was so mad I went without a weapon. I didn't have any way to defend myself when he ... fought back.

[How could anyone just... say that kind of thing to people like them, who know that they can't live a normal life? Hell, that even stung him and the letter wasn't even directed at him.

And the bandages only serve to make him angrier. Luke jumps from his place on the floor to his feet at the sight and her explanation. Oh, he can understand her actions; he'd probably do the same thing, if he was in her shoes. But...]

How could he say that to you? Why would he attack you when you didn't have a weapon?!

[ winces. it's instinctual -- she can't help but lean away from his anger a bit, even if it's not directed at her. softly ]

... I guess because I attacked him first. I don't know. All I care about is that it's over. At least we can finally stop fighting now... I just want to put it all behind us. I don't know how we could have both stayed in the house while still being so angry at each other...

[ yeah, ftr, it's even someone who lives with her. have fun braining that one, Luke. ]

[Her reaction doesn't quell his anger - after all, Luke is a fighter and an emotional person. When he's angry, not much can get in his way.

But her words, especially since they're spoken softly, manage to do that. Luke's fists slowly relax, and he leans his shoulders back as his expression calms. Wow... they were even living in the same house?

... There's a certain amount of awkward that comes from that statement, but it also puts things into perspective. Luke sits down on the couch beside her, hands between his knees as he hunches over to look down at the floor.]

... You two must've been angry at each other for a long time, huh? And being so close together probably didn't help at all.

... it all happened last summer ... so it has been a long time. [ Other Things that happened last summer going unmentioned. ] ... Riku ... he always wanted the Keyblade. That weapon... it's why I died. [ another wince, and a little too quickly ] Back home, I mean.

[He looks at her again - he's more upset than angry over that particular bit of news.]

Why would he want something that killed you?

... the Keyblade is a powerful weapon. There's more than one person from my world who wields it... Sora and Roxas do, too. [ very soft smile. ] Sora used it to save everyone. It's not a bad thing, it's just... when it's me, because of what I am... [ shakes her head ]

Edited 2011-01-23 21:44 (UTC)

[Because of what she is...

Luke glances down at the floor again - unsure if he should try, but... He scoots closer, then wraps an arm around Xion's shoulders to pull her against his side again. He's not really sure if he understands it all, but still. She seems like she needs some kind of contact.]

[ she's startled, at first. is Luke always this forward?

... does it matter? with a quiet noise, she shuts her eyes and shifts to lean into his embrace. after a quiet moment ]

Luke ... you can't tell anyone, okay? Maybe it's bad, but ... if anyone finds out what Riku did... [ especially Sanji. ] ... I don't want more trouble.

... I won't. I promise.

[For a moment Luke just keeps her there and watches the fire dance. It's larger now, warming the entire space around them. This is where they had their little Christmas, wasn't it...?]

Sometimes, when people get angry... They just need to fight it out. To get all that anger out of them. If they don't, it just keeps bottling up until they explode over it.

[ she knows. the memory is with her, even right now. she's watching the fire too, thinking about that day.

... maybe reading the book he gave her will help her sleep tonight.

but his words draw her attention back to the present, and she actually looks up at him, eyebrows knitting. ... not only does he not judge her for doing such a stupid thing -- rushing out there, weaponless, to attack someone she knew hat the advantage -- he understands why.

she feels this urge -- to do something, like tilt her head up and... but no, she doesn't even-- he probably doesn't feel--

she bites her lip instead. ]

... I kind of think that was our explosion. But it was better that way, than ... an argument that might have ruined things forever. It's over now... for good, I hope.

I hope so, too.

[Unconsciously, he reaches his hand just a little further to touch his fingers lightly over Xion's arm, the place where he saw the bandages. That's his main concern; he doesn't like seeing her hurt like this, physically and emotionally. But he doesn't bring that up when he speaks.]

It's... really terrible when a relationship like that gets to the point when you can't even talk without fighting. Maybe now it'll be different. [Maybe... they'll even get back together. That's okay... really.]

[ she looks down when she feels his hand on her arm -- partially because it's still so sore, even to a light touch. her expression softens. the bandages run all the way up both her forearms, but ... she doesn't want to worry him with that. ]

You know ... I was going to leave. If it didn't get any better... I'm not sure where I would've gone, though. [ shakes her head.

but somehow .... this -- feels like an important point to add. ] I don't want what we had anymore. It's been so long, and he said ... all these things that I just ... can't forget. [ why is it important to say this? what does it matter? ] ... I just want to be friends again. Besides... every time he tried to explain himself he just hurt my feelings worse. I don't want ... I don't want to just feel like a stupid Replica because of those arguments anymore.

[Because it's not like they'd ever understand what a normal life was like or anything. ... Yeah, Luke's still feeling a little bitter over that letter. What replica wouldn't?

But her saying all of that makes Luke feel... oddly better. Not that he understands it at all - in fact, he's almost appalled for thinking that way over a break-up. But if it means Xion won't feel so hurt anymore...]

Then be friends again. Cool off for a while, then try again. We... The last thing you need is to be even harder on yourself... I know that for sure.

... I know. Right now I'm just ... tired, and my arms hurt, and... [ I don't feel good. but she doesn't say that.

instead she readjusts so she can better curl up against his chest, sighing quietly. ]

[... She's just asking for a hug, curled up like that. So, Luke complies by curling the arm that's already around her shoulders a little closer and brings his other arm around her waist. There's this urge to lower his head and rest his nose in her hair but - no. That's... way too close of a contact, even considering how they are now. All he does is shut his eyes.

And recall what she said. But... you know, he doesn't really want to speak up right now. It's too nice of an atmosphere to break.]

[ dhgakjdlg aaaaaaaaaaa a hug. she has needed a hug so bad and she makes a soft noise and scoots closer so she can bury her face in his chest. her arms, still painful, she keeps carefully, lightly, on his chest, though she does manage to curl her fingers slightly.

she's thinking about it, too. about everything -- how ill and weak she still feels, how she's said nothing about that so far, how ... it was a story for another day while he was still sick.

but it's even harder keeping it a secret now. she shifts slightly, tilting her head back enough just to look at him ...

... and waits. maybe he'll ask, maybe he won't. ]

[Action] basically. /slams this tag down and GOES TO BED

[Action] B| /pillow for the rest of the night, GOOD NIGHT YOU

[Action] /yawns. sup bb.

[Action] Playing vidyagames to wake myself up |D

[Action] vidyagames like whaaat. /just rolls around rp

[Action] ghooost trick. again.

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