I take it seriously! ... of course I do. It's just... [ her brows knit tightly. it's hard to talk about this. she doesn't want to fish for sympathy. ] ... it's still hard to keep from thinking like I'm still the silly little puppet. The mistake that the Organization tried so hard to get rid of. [ shifts, visibly uncomfortable. ] ... I really do try not to think that way anymore. But when I'm upset, it sort of ... comes back.