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( Hermione | Locked 80% )

Hermione... Sorry if this is out of the blue, but I wanted to ask a favor of you. Would it be possible to ... meet more often to work on magic? I have a handle on Nala, but I wanted to work on Eferin and Kipinn... Tsinku too, if I can manage it. I know it's probably a lot to ask, but... if you wouldn't mind?

( locked to the Straw Hats - yes all of them because hell by now she thinks all of you must be good, trustworthy people :|b | 95% )

I'm ... I'm sorry to bother you all, but I had a favor I wanted to ask. I know Sanji is sleeping... I was wondering if-- um. [ pausepause. still kinda shy. ] I could come by once a day... to leave something with him. I -- I guess you could call it a gift. [ shy. ;; ] If it's not too much trouble or anything.

[ deep breath. ] Is there anyone in the village who could teach archery? I could try learning on my own, but ... a teacher would be really helpful.

And for those of you getting drafted... [ ESPECIALLY YOU THREE, USOPP, BROOK, SOKKA. ] Please, stay safe, and good luck.

Oh, um... Fenimore? Vash? If it's okay, I wanted to talk to you.

[ added about ten minutes after the initial entry: ]

( Axel, Riku, Roxas, Replica Riku, Sora ... and Kairi | Locked 100% )

... you know how there's a loss that people have when they come back after death, here? ... I figured out what mine was.

(ooc; backdated to evening-ish of the 24th.)

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... I'm sorry about the other day. I shouldn't have gotten so upset. [ she has no idea Sanji explained the situation to Fenimore, so she thinks she still has some explaining to do, unfortunately. ]

[ whereas Fenimore has no idea that Sanji hasn't explained that to Xion, so she thinks that that part won't be coming up. bluntly: ] No, you shouldn't have. But I was the one who yelled at you, not the other way around. And yet, here you are, saying you're sorry. [ huff. ] Geez, what kind of person goes out of her way to apologise to the person who made her cry?

Eh heh... [ sheepish. ] Well, I just ... wanted to say it. In case. ... do you still want to know what happened?

I said I know what I need to know already, didn't I? You don't have to tell me if you don't want to talk about it. [ there's a pause as Fenimore rests her cheek on a hand, leaning her elbow against the table her journal's resting on. ] Unless you want to talk about it this time.

[ a deep sigh. ] ... the reason I got so upset is that the danger you were worried about was me, and my best friend. I turned into a monster, and he ... he killed me. That's why I died. [ a pause. ] It's a long story... about why I turned into a monster. But it's over now... and I'm going to make sure it never happens again.

It was just hard. I knew for a long time it was going to happen. That's why, the very first time I spoke to you ... I was asking for stories. It was scary, always knowing I was going to die.

[ ...okay, so she was thinking it might be something weird if it had affected Xion but wasn't a danger to anyone else. but she...really, really hadn't been expecting this. she's sitting up straighter now, her arm dropping down to the table now that she's not leaning on it. ]

What--? [ she cuts herself off, before she let shock make her overly harsh. ]

[ "taking some time to think of what to say next is better than just saying something stupid for the sake of responding quickly. you can't always take back your words." ...even months later, that guy still ticks her off with her perception of his attitude, but she can't avoid admitting he had given good advice.

But still..."more or less, it's just a monster", huh? that girl had a lot to answer for, in her mind. but even with Kairi's assurances, it had still been frightening to see such a huge monster, even from a distance. Xion hadn't said someone turned her into a monster, but that she had turned into a monster, and Sanji had said that it wasn't a danger to other people.... ]

[ so...Xion is a monster. this timid girl who seems to be constantly worrying about other people is a monster. a gigantic, scary thing. how can she say that she'd make sure it'd never happen again? it shouldn't have happened the first time, and yet Xion hadn't stopped it then. what was so different now?

maybe...maybe she was still a monster, in a way. a monster in the form of a girl. ] You.... [ Fenimore doesn't look directly at the journal, instead lowering her head, her eyes obscured by her bangs. ]

[ a monster in the form of a girl...that was what Orerines--humans--call her people, sometimes. the soldiers in red said as much to her, or maybe it was to someone else. the things they said tended to run together in her mind. those knights from before Fenimore arrived in Luceti likely thought the same thing.

but Atsuki hadn't said it when she told him. he took the news that she wasn't human...almost annoyingly well, as he seems to take everything. Senel certainly didn't think that of her--the odd, half-Ferines baby back at the house certainly proved that--and the people he had traveled with...well, they hadn't recoiled, at the very least, even if it was hard to tell just what they thought.

it isn't the same thing, in Fenimore's mind, at least. she's not a monster in any way. in at least one way, Xion says she is, or was. but...it was the Orerines who were supposed to be the closed-minded ones who couldn't accept anything different, right? would a monster cry over someone being too sharp with her, or spend her time worrying over friends rather than herself?

if she didn't know, would it have made a difference?

she doesn't raise her head, but her voice is softer, a little less strained than before. ]

You.... You really don't know how to break news to people gently, do you?

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[ Fenimore's long pause as she clearly thinks this over makes Xion hesitate. Should she have elaborated more? Maybe never said it? Did she make Fenimore angry again?

But when Fenimore speaks again, in that soft tone... Xion is both surprised and a little relieved. She laughs sheepishly. ]

I'm sorry... I've had to tell that story a lot since I arrived in Luceti, and I guess I've just gotten used to telling the short version, rather than the long version. Is ... is it... [ okay? but Xion doesn't know how to ask. she always worries people will hate her after they discover the truth about her nature. ]

[ Since she arrived in Luceti? So it was something from before, maybe? Either way, there's another pause on Fenimore's end, though not nearly so long. She's still trying to think before she speaks, which doesn't come naturally for her.

And guessing that the last word is supposed to be okay, the answer may not be entirely no, but it's not yes. Fenimore mightn't hate Xion over her true nature, but she's uncomfortable, and even a little scared. But she's already gotten the impression that Xion's the sensitive type, so she's not going to admit it. But she can't keep it entirely from her expression, so she'll just have to hope that the journal image isn't clear enough when she looks back at it for the other girl to tell. ]

There you go again, worrying about other people when you're the one in trouble. I think the better question is "are you okay?"

[ Sometimes, Xion can be pretty perceptive. She picks up on it, slightly, from Fenimore's face -- something being slightly off -- but ... she can hardly blame her. So she lets it pass. Fenimore's question just gets a slow, sheepish smile, and her voice is gentle. ]

I'm okay. Everyone keeps asking me that! [ a tiny laugh ] Thank you so much, Fenimore. You really are a kind person.

[ fff, this again. Her eyes move to the left, not quite looking at the journal. ] You know, I'm starting to wonder about these friends of yours if you think this is a good measure for "kind."

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[voice] done at last

[voice] no, that was beautiful and awesome and baw ;;

[voice] thank you! glad to hear I wasn't just indulging myself.

[voice] these two are such opposites but really, I love threading with them

[voice] they make for such a lovely contrast--I've also been really enjoying it