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[ Without any warning, a short, sharp shriek of fear is going to be transmitted across the journals. It's followed by dead silence, and a few whispered words too quiet to be picked up on.

A moment goes by in silence, wherein Xion notices both the room's other [Bad username or site: perplex_me title= @ livejournal.com] and her journal at the foot of her bed. Her voice is shaky when the journal picks it up next, and she's both addressing anyone who heard as well as Roxas. ]

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to -- it's -- I'm okay.

What's...

[ She could have sworn she saw him, just as she awoke. Right out of the corner of her eye, like some monster from her nightmares. It would be impossible to mistake that blue hair, those impossibly cold eyes... but there was no one there. Not to mention her dreams of the past few days haven't exactly been nightmares, so much as... ]

--Sora! Sora! Where is he?! [ very upset Poppet is very upset and isn't sure if she's really yelling this at Roxas, or at the whole universe. ] SORA!

(ooc; her voice replies will come a little bit after this entry is actually made; her thread with Roxas will chronologically come first. tags might be a little slow because there is a cat sleeping on my arms.)

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No, you're not.

What's wrong?

Everything.

[ tiny voice. but she so does not want to explain it. she lapses into silence after the lets that slip, too. ]

... Do you want to talk about it?

... it's a long story.

I'm willing to listen.

... if I told you that there's a really good chance I'm -- going to die, what would you say...?

...

I'd want to know why you said that.

Because it's true? I... [ pauses, realizing she has no idea what to say. ] I made a mistake, Hugo. Months ago. But I'm going to have to pay for it. There's no other way out.

What do you mean?

What happened?

It's hard to explain... did I ever tell you what I am?

Aren't you human?

... no. I'm a Replica. A clone of someone else. And I was programmed to do something very specific... something very bad. I didn't find out the first time until it was too late. But even here in Luceti, when I knew, I still made such a big mistake...

[ long pause. this is the most condensed version of the story she's ever told, but it simultaneously feels like too much and not enough. ]

The only way to undo my mistake is... I have to die.

[----What?] No! Don't talk like that, Xion.

Hugo... I'm not saying it because I want to die. I don't. There's just no other way.

I'm sorry. I probably shouldn't have... [ what? told him? let herself scream? she trails off. ]

No, it's... [How was he supposed to believe something like that? it sounded like a suicidal note of sorts.] Where are you right now?

... I'm at home, in my apartment ... Hugo, please.

[ though she's not sure what she's asking. ]

Which building and floor? [Even if you don't tell him, he'll start looking for you anyway.]

... community building two. It's okay, I'll -- I'll meet you outside. [ resigned, by this point. ]

I'll be there soon. [And he's off to look for you.]

[ ... that happened very fast, somehow. Xion simply sighs and shuts her journal. as promised, she'll be there, outside the entrance to her building, when he arrives. ]

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