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[ Axel's not the only one who hasn't been in a certain apartment that much, lately. Xion's been scarce, keeping to herself as much as humanly possible except through journal communication. But right now, despite the cold, she's sitting on a bench in the center of town. At least she's got a puffy white coat on to keep her warm.

She's writing in her journal, at the moment. Doing ... math! Very simple math, just some addition, and murmuring aloud to herself as she does it. 363... 364... 365...

After a sudden pause, she crosses all of her work out, then sets her pen down, staring up at the sky. Despite her quiet voice, the journal picks up what she says anyway. ]

I turn a year old today...

[ Then she shuts the journal, so no one who isn't actually nearby right now will hear this part -- or see her expression turn suddenly sad. ]

Sora...

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[Good. She seemed so upset. It's good that she's standing up at least a little.

And considering he's let Kairi use him as a pillow before? This is pretty mild.]

[~~You know you liked having girlboobs pressed into your chest Riku bb.~~ Roxas is just starting to become very, very confused.] ...neither of you have been at the apartment very much lately.

[ huh, suddenly she's not meeting his eyes again. ]

... I was scared of making it worse, so ... I thought it'd be better if I stayed away for a bit.

[~~Yeah well. That's Kairi. And we all know what Riku thinks--~~

Er. Still watchin'. Roxas...really acts different around people who aren't him.]

[~~Which obviously means it needs to happen again. I mean what.~~ Roxas shakes his head slowly, tilting his head.]

We're best friends though, right? Why would you think that?

[ okay, what. really. a visible thrill of tension runs through Xion's body, and she just ... sort of stares at him, like she's not sure if she should be mad or surprised or nothing at all or what. ]

... Roxas ... last time we talked, after all of that, you just said you "needed to think." I had no idea what you were thinking, if maybe you were mad at me after all ... and then you and Axel weren't talking. What was I supposed to think? After what I did, anyone would ... hate me, so ... I thought ...

[ abruptly the steel goes out of her and she slumps. ] I was so certain I'd ruined everything. So badly that we couldn't be friends anymore...

[~~Yes, yes it does.~~

And back to frowning. Roxas, you jerk. >|]

Wh-that's not what I meant though! That's a lot of information, I couldn't just go along with it without thinking it over. And Axel...we talked about you, yeah, but that's not what we only talked about.

... [ gently, with her fingers finally still, if laced very, very tightly, in her lap. ] I didn't know any of that, Roxas. All I knew was what I saw, and it didn't look good.

... do you know who I've been talking to? Xigbar. He's been so understanding about everything ... and nice. It's weird. ... but it helped. All I wanted to know was if things would be okay, and you and Axel weren't saying much at all, so I just ... jumped to conclusions, I guess. .... sorry.

(ooc; I hate italics tags as much as they hate me.)

Edited 2009-11-21 23:37 (UTC)

[Hm. Xigbar? That reminds him of something, but he'll keep that to himself.]

[Roxas doesn't look too pleased about hearing the news about Xigbar. But he'll keep that to himself.] Xigbar, huh. [Or not.] ...I'm sorry, okay? All of this just got too confusing.

......

[ okay, now she feels bad all over again, for assuming all this stuff. so she's just going to stay quiet for a long moment, and ... fidget. aaaawkwaaaard. ]

... it's okay.

... Hey. Want me to leave you two alone, Xion?

[Because it's none of his business...]

...I should have just told you that. [Gives Riku a side-glance, but otherwise he's going to ignore him.]

[ she gives Riku a look like she may actually panic if he leaves, but then she takes a deep breath. she'll get back to you in a minute, Roxas. ]

Sorry. I don't want to make you stay. I'll talk to you later, okay?

[Right. He'll sloowly get up, that way she has time to readjust, what with her using him as a rock. Or something.

But he nods.]

Don't worry about it. This has nothing to do with me, anyway.

[But he'll get ready to head out.]

Good luck.

[Roxas watches as Riku gets up and ready to leave, not saying anything and just keeping an eye on him. However, he takes the chance to go ahead and steal his seat. He's going to let Xion talk first.]

[ she's quiet again, for a moment, watching Riku go. then she glances kind of sideways at Roxas, fiiiighting off the urge to bite her lip. ... it doesn't work. ]

Listen, Roxas ... it's okay. It's not like we can go back and change what's already happened, anyway. Besides, I only just figured out earlier that I turned a year old today ... and I didn't even know what a birthday was until someone told me. So it's really -- it's okay.

[Byeee Riku. Roxas is going to think this through...]

...my birthday was two months ago. Axel explained it to me, said it made the most sense since I was here for a year. That's not the point, the point is...it's okay. We'll figure something out, right?

[ Xion stays quiet for a moment, pulling her journal into her arms and hugging it against her chest. ]

I don't think I'll measure my birthday by how long I've been here ... I mean, then I'd have to wait another whole year. I'm okay with my birthday being today.

[ softly ] You really are ahead of me, huh. Older, I mean. Axel, too. It's so weird to think about...

[ with a sigh, and a little more strongly in answer to his question ] Yeah. We will.

I wouldn't think about it too much though...okay?

[ she does smile a little, at least. ]

I'll try.

[ while there's still totally one thing she's dying to ask, the stays silent, staring at the ground. ]

...good. [Grins still, but he knows it's not really perfect.]

[ she nods, a little more relaxed now. but she still has to ask. it takes her a moment to work up the courage ]

Last time you said you needed to think, but ... I wanted to ask again. Is this ... all of this really okay now?

It...it's really weird, but I think it will be okay. Does that make sense?

I'll get you someday gadget :|

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oo3 [ action // accidental voice ]

so you like humping conclusions, eh?

...Mega you're dirty =\

........ /literally just falls over laughing. k-kinky.

I blame the internet. It warped my mind

I don't have a mind to be warped

..... does that make you a robot or something?!

she's a zombie, duh.

...braaaains

A ZOMBIE ROBOT?!! nooooo /gets holy water

a zombie robot with a pirate ship :D

WRONG AGAIN. Astro Zombie

... zombie astro boy? is that what I am meant to be picturing? OH GOD FLYING ZOMBIES

Flying zombies with machine gun butts

No :|

I can't decide if this is awesome or horrifying. NOT SURE IF WANT.

Maybe it's horrawesome? :D

MAYBE.

okay that's just too hard to pronounce to be useful.

Why did I not know this was here.

for the same reason it took me so long to reply? |D

NO. /has no idea what she's answering

...... I think you just pwned yourself. or maybe you pwned me. I CAN'T TELL.

Naturally I just win the universe

but I wanted to win the universe ;;

Too bad the universe is mine =\

I'll get you someday gadget :|

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