[He bites his lip and nods, even if she can't see him. She's right, it's not as if he wanted to not remember everyone, he wishes he could remember because they are his friends and he wants just so much to have friends. There's no way he would want to forget them on purpose. But it still feels bad, honestly he already felt a bit bad before, because he was in the place of his older self and he had no idea where his older self was,. He assumed that his older self was in the past, since he was in the future, but it wasn't as if he could check. Anyway it felt wrong because he was taking someone else's place, even if that someone else was himself.
Now, however... Now he knows that he's not stealing anyone's place, which is good. But he also knows that nothing he learns here will matter, right? He can't go back home and go through those years until he's older with the reassurance that one day he will have friends as he wants. Because that already happened. Because he won't return anywhere, he will just grow big again and remember everything again. And in the meantime everyone has to endure the fact that their friend doesn't know them, Ange has to endure the fact that he doesn't love her, he likes her and thinks that she's pretty, but he's too young for love and she's so older... So virtually he doesn't love her now and in movies and such it's always said that it's very painful when the person you love doesn't love you. It must be, it's painful when he can't tell if his parents care about him at all despite him caring for them.]
But it must hurt them, that I don't remember, right? I know it would hurt me if they didn't remember me and I knew that they were my friends. And I even have a girlfriend, but she's so much older than me and I don't remember her at all. I only know she's my girlfriend because she told me herself, she must be hurting a lot.
[Voice]
Do you know me as well?
[He bites his lip and nods, even if she can't see him. She's right, it's not as if he wanted to not remember everyone, he wishes he could remember because they are his friends and he wants just so much to have friends. There's no way he would want to forget them on purpose. But it still feels bad, honestly he already felt a bit bad before, because he was in the place of his older self and he had no idea where his older self was,. He assumed that his older self was in the past, since he was in the future, but it wasn't as if he could check. Anyway it felt wrong because he was taking someone else's place, even if that someone else was himself.
Now, however... Now he knows that he's not stealing anyone's place, which is good. But he also knows that nothing he learns here will matter, right? He can't go back home and go through those years until he's older with the reassurance that one day he will have friends as he wants. Because that already happened. Because he won't return anywhere, he will just grow big again and remember everything again. And in the meantime everyone has to endure the fact that their friend doesn't know them, Ange has to endure the fact that he doesn't love her, he likes her and thinks that she's pretty, but he's too young for love and she's so older... So virtually he doesn't love her now and in movies and such it's always said that it's very painful when the person you love doesn't love you. It must be, it's painful when he can't tell if his parents care about him at all despite him caring for them.]
But it must hurt them, that I don't remember, right? I know it would hurt me if they didn't remember me and I knew that they were my friends. And I even have a girlfriend, but she's so much older than me and I don't remember her at all. I only know she's my girlfriend because she told me herself, she must be hurting a lot.
[Pause.]
Are you hurt?